I remember when I first started taking ASL courses over 6 years ago. I LOVED, LOVED, LOVED it! Sign language is such a cool language to learn. There are so many things you can do with sign language that you can never do with spoken language. I wanted to tell everyone and I wanted everyone to learn sign language.
I also started learning about the concept of Deaf Culture. I was truly fascinated by this idea and never really thought that people would view being deaf as more of a "difference" as oppose to a "disability." I started really thinking about deafness, how I view it, how others view it, how I dealt with it up until then.
To be honest, I never really thought about my not hearing too well and wearing hearing aids ever since I was two. I never thought about being hard of hearing. It was not anything that people teased me about or made a big deal about. When my mother found out that I had a hearing loss, she was fine with it and did what she had to do to help me. She got me hearing aids and tried to help me advocate for myself in letting others know so they can better accommodate me in certain situations. I was not a shy kid, I did extremely well in school and got along fine with others. I was never embarrassed about my hearing loss or my hearing aids. It was not a big deal to me at the time. There were no concerns or discussions about my hearing loss. My family just let me be.
When I first started taking ASL and deaf awareness classes, I was forced to really think about my hearing loss for the first time. I was 23 years old. It was an exhilarating experience, claiming my deafness and finally understanding certain things about myself (why I tend to avoid large groups of people, why I prefer one on one, why I was really good at tuning things out, why I was always so tired after certain classes where heavy discussions took place, etc.). I began to understand how I was constantly not acknowledging my hearing loss by pretending to listen and by giving up listening in large group settings, laughing on cue.
It was as if I was awake for the first time. I finally starting to understand. "Oh, that's why I did that!" Or "Why didn't I tell other people I couldn't hear them very well?"
I realized that my hearing loss should have been a big deal. I should have been taught by deaf and hard of hearing teachers how to advocate for myself, what my hearing loss means, what it means to others, and how to deal with it. I was always told that I was fine and doing great. And I was doing extremely well academically and pretty well socially. But, I could have saved a lot of trouble and pain by learning how to own up to my hearing loss, learn more about it, and let others be more aware of it. It would have been nice to have been taught how to deal with certain situations (like conversing with a large group of people).
All of this realization came crashing down on me. I never understood myself so well before.
I am really glad I took up ASL. I highly recommend it.
I became super passionate about Deaf Culture, ASL, and deaf and hard of hearing issues. I would talk about it all of the time with my hearing friends. After a while, I could tell they became tired of hearing about it and being shown signs all of the time. I reached out to the deaf community and constantly went to different events, hungry for sign language. I was upset with how people viewed signing deaf people as "disabled" and I would be upset when I heard about people "pitying" deaf people. I thought the Oral/Aural method was plain wrong, and could not believe that parents and schools would often not provide access to fluent language via signs to profoundly deaf children. I felt really bad for those who went to the Oral schools for the deaf and were forbidden to sign. I felt awful for some of my friends who sat at the dinner table with their families constantly being left out. I knew one person who would bring a book to the dinner table. They were being excluded constantly, because of the lack of sign language and awareness. I could not understand why many parents would not learn sign language for their profoundly deaf children. I was highly opinionated about various issues and I let everyone know.
Then I went to graduate school. I was still very pro sign language and deaf culture. But, slowly I started to change my views again.
Just about everyone at school were focused on sign language and Deaf culture. Virtually all of my classes were about educating severely-profoundly deaf children who use sign language. I was attending several 'deaf events' where everyone signed. I was all for ASL and viewing deafness in a more cultural light. I even opposed cochlear implants.We do not need to 'fix' deafness, we need to embrace it. Although, there were times that I was told that I was not 'deaf enough' and never will be and that I will never understand---I just ignored those jerks.
Then during the summer, I took a cued speech course. I loved it. I really benefitted from the class and learned how I was incorrectly saying some words. I could automatically visually see how words are spoken. It was so cool! I then realized that it does not have to only be about ASL. There are many other ways we can educate and communicate with deaf and hard of hearing people. There are many ways to be deaf and hard of hearing.
Then I started to thinking about hard of hearing people like myself. What about people who do not use sign language or who prefer to communicate orally/aurally? What about those who have mild-moderate hearing losses? Why aren't we learning about this population at my school? Why does it always have to be sign, sign, sign? I did not want to be so close minded anymore about deaf education. I wanted to open up my mind and explore other areas.
My excitement for ASL and Deaf culture started to wear away.
So, I started to learn about oral/aural methods, cued speech, visual phonics, cochlear implants, etc. Not many people studied other ways they can teach and work with deaf and hard of hearing children.
I became less pro ASL and Deaf culture and more interested in diversity. Being a teacher today has gotten me more aware of how there are a billion different ways of being deaf.
So, that's where I am at right now. I am open to all ideas and I try to understand where everyone is coming from. I do not like to tell other people what to do or what I think they should do. I can only provide what information I have and leave it up to the person to decide what to do with it.
I feel bad about how I would force my ideals on others in the past, especially when I was super passionate about ASL and Deaf culture. I now realize that this is not a nice thing to do, especially when others did not ask for my opinions.
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